.....iT's mY LifE.....

dah lama aku tinggalkan blog nih... rasa memang nak menulis..tapi masa takde... tgu lah... suatu hari nnt..bila aku dah berada di tempat ku... di tempat orang nih..rasa mcm terhad jer... dan banyak bende lain lagik yang nak di buat... tuh yang blog jadik tak terbuat...

Dihimpit dicengkam rindu ini Gerimis duka ku Menggamit kenangan silam Resah dan pilu menghampiri Sunyinya malamku kelam Pedih kemelut cinta Dingin kelu bicara Tuk mengungkap rindu Sayang ku mungkir pada kejujuranmu Menolak segala bahgia dihadapanku Kasihku mungkir pada kata janjiku Berlari aku jauh dari cintamu Ku kesali Dihanyut dilambung ombak lara Sepiku berkelana Melayari jiwa nestapa Menggagahi rasa kesayuan Leburlah harapan cinta Namun kesetiaanmu Kugenggam bagai hukuman Mengheret langkahku Maafkan daku Kekasih hati cinta kita berakhir Maafkan daku Kerna ku memungkirinya Maafkan daku Kekasih hati cinta jadi begini Maafkan daku Ku mungkir bahagia

Ronaldinho – The best footballer of the world and he is my fav Ballack – He looks sexy while sweating and so gorgeous in his white jersey Beckham – the scandalous goldenball German Lux – The most handsome goalkeeper after David James Allesandro Nesta – Knew him by his birth date Milan Baros – He is so cute Zidane – No comment … speechless Normally for women, football is about games and the players.

aku bukan lah seorang yang pelupa, selain nombor, aku rasa daya ingatan aku boleh tahan jugak. cuma kalau suruh aku memabca untuk exam tu, ada jugak lah masalah. tetapi sejak musibah itu , aku perasan, aku jadik pelupa. sudah banyak kali bila lupa dimana aku jumpa seseorang itu. padahal, baru minggu lepas aku ada meeting atau discussion dengan mereka. aku perlu jot down somewhere setiap tugasan yang aku perlu siapkan. sampai macam tu sekali. haritu, boss minta aku cari info pasal sesuatu, tapi aku siapkan satu task lain dulu. then, aku langsung tak ingat hingga boss aku tanya balik. kenapa lah aku skang ni... minggu lepas aku tanya sesuatu pada kawan pejabat, kawan aku kata "awak dah tanya saya semalam soalan tu", aku diam jer la. hujung minggu baru ni, aku nak cerita sesuatu kat sorang kawan ni, pasal satu isu, nak tanya pendapat dia. nak tau dia jawap apa? " aku tau pun pasal kau cerita kat aku haritu (minggu lepas)". aku terdiam. aku bagitau kawan aku tuh masalah...

very soon, people will start concerntrate on world cup. everything will be bola.. as for me i go for BRAZIL. my fav player - ronaldinho . i almost not watching football when i'm alone. not really understand. but i like football. those days, used to watched football with friends. my x dear is a football player and MU die hard fan. liverpool is for myself. but u might see i'm in MU jersey. malas nak gaduh2, if i gave him company for EPL matches, of course i on his site. emm he looks good in barca jersey... macam ronaldinho jer. but i dont like to c him with his green-white stripes - celtic's. tak kena ngan kaler kulit kot. but i wont care anymore. too many world cup magazines in the market now. taktau nak pilih yang mana. i was thinking of buying a few. kalau dulu boleh export somewhere, tapi tak lagi sekarang, so i better save money on something else. wanna buy jersey, of course the yellow-green - brasil, but the white for deutsch look gorgeous too. beli kemudian la. last w...

“ Mimpi yang indah, adalah mimpi yang Paling sukar untuk menjadi kenyataan” Aku lupa, dari mana aku jumpa ungkapan itu. Kalau tak silap dari sebuah novel tulisan Shamsiah Mohd Nor ( mungkin penulis lain ) yang aku baca semasa di Universiti dulu. Tetapi ungkapan itu masih aku ingat sampai ke hari ini. Memang seronok apabila bermimpi indah di malam hari, tetapi apabila terjaga, realitinya tidaklah seindah mimpi tersebut. Sebab tu agaknya orang kata mimpi itu permainan tidur. Macam-macam cerita pasal mimpi kalau nak dicerita. Kata orang mimpi tu terbalik, kalau indah jadik sebaliknya, begitu juga mimpi buruk. Terpulanglah macam mana kita nak tafsirkan mimpi-mimpi tersebut. Tapi aku rasa, semua orang seronok kalau mimpi-mimpi indah tersebut menajdi kenyataan. Ada orang kata juga, kalau kita bermimpi dimalam hari, dan ingin orang tersebut juga mimpikan kita, terus terbalikan bantal yang kita gunakan. Kalau orang tersebut masih tidur, dia akan mimpikan kita. Emm… masuk akal ker? Pernah jug...

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

Apa Artinya Cinta - Melly & Ari Lasso tiba-tiba engkau ada kemudian engkau hadir laksana kerdil ku memeluk lihat aku lebih dalam di matamu ku melihat ada cinta yg tersirat sirami hati merebak barangkali aku salah ku terdiam bukan bisu tahu engkau besar malu tutupi rasa gelisah biar saja waktu nanti yg menikmati kisah ini bersamamu aku senang belum juga kah kau menyadarinya akulah yg pantas untuk kau cintai di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta cinta ini sudah menelan waktuku siang malam hanya untuk pikirkan engkau sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta dah banyak kali dengar lagu ni, tapi aku tak paham apa yang nak disampaikan. Apapun, aku suka dengar muziknya.

These few months, I’ve been actively participate in emailing SESMA Alumni group. We discuss everything, our good and bad memories during our stay in SESMA, current issues, even nasi dagang Mok Ngoh was one of hot topic. We’re from various batches, as for myself I was from the year of 93. Sometimes we just ‘kutuk’ each other, say if we are from different sport houses. Red, blue, yellow and green. But green like never exist in our discussion group. There are, Bro Yuzdi and Bro Saiful of 83, Bro Tarmizi of 86, Bro Wan Mokhtar, Bro Fauzi ( very few posting now), Sis Hayati, Sis Fatimah of 90, Sis Salmiah of 88, then, Abdullah Fauzi and Mazani of 92 last but not least, Senget and myself. Last week they organized a small get together somewhere Taman Melati, but I’m not feeling well and missed that event. We plan to have ‘suka-suka’ futsal and gathering and one night at SESMA. Tonight the ‘suka-suka’ futsal still proceed, even just few of us came and just few of the few played. Big thanks to ...

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku. Seandainya telah kau catatkan ****** miliku tercipta untukku Dekatkan dia padaku Satukan hatinya dan hatiku Titipkanlah kemesraan Di antara hati kami Agar kebahagiaan itu kekal abadi Tetapi ya Allah, Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan, ****** bukan milikku. Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku. Luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku. Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan. Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu. Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan Adalah yang terbaik buat diriku dan dirinya Kerana Engkau Maha Mengetahui. Segala yang terbaik buat hamba-Mu ini… Ya Allah yang maha penyayang Berikan aku kekuatan agar aku rasa bahagia Gantikan yang telah hilang Tumbuhkan kembali yg telah patah Meskipun tidakkan sama dengan dirinya

Today, after smsing Imran, I found he is in INTAN, I went to see him at auditorium. He going to be posted to Paris ( very soon ). I’m happy for him. I knew he deserve it. So he definitely will not join the attachment program which we going to attend middle of June. Sad. During lunch time, he came to my office and again. Nothing else but borak-borak as usual. Today I felt like being in INTAN in yester years. Met Imran ( now at PSD ), Zairi ( now at MOF ) then call me, asking something. Chat over the net with Rahim ( now at INTAN Swak ). Imran said, the attachment will start this 19 Jun, but I haven’t received any official letter. My boss did ask me, but I cannot confirm her anything before the offer letter. Waiting and waiting. But I really need to get myself off from office for a while. Hopefully I’ll manage to complete some task given – ( all the purchasing part, approval etc ). So, by the time I come back, all the servers will be ready for deployment, installation, migration etc. Ras...

Last Saturday, 20 May, PERJASA – IBM organized a treasure hunt from Putrajaya to Port Dickson. I went to Putrajaya with Hani and my other colleagues. We arrived Putrajaya about 8am. I was in group 7 ( Xeon ) – Zuki, Nazli, Ezianee and myself. My former Boss, Dato’ Dr. Raja Malik joined the hunting as well. We start hunting at 9.15 am, after breakfast, briefing etc. Hunting all the way from Putrajaya to Port Dickson, with Ezianee’s RAV4. Been through Kajang, Bangi, Nilai and all the never-been-places between Nilai and Seremban. We almost lost at Nilai. This is my very first experience in TH. It’s not easy to get the answer for the tricky questions. As for myself, I only can spot and answer very few questions compare to my other team mates. Once we arrived PD, we found the questions getting tougher ( or we already tired ). We finally arrived Gouman Hotel about 2.30pm. After completed the task given, I was thinking of zzzzzzz -nap ( sleep probably ). I shared room with Suzie. Really but w...

Aku bukanlah sedang dilamun cinta, bukan juga sedang mengejar cinta. Aku juga bukanlah dikejar cinta, tapi mungkin lebih tepat kalau aku kata aku ini telah ditinggalkan cinta. FALSAFAH CINTA ini bukan lah tulisan aku, tetapi dari hatikubicara. ( terima kasih sato kerana ‘kenal’kan aku pada langitmalam. Zuril, susunan kata-kata yang menarik buat saya terus membaca. Zuril kalau awak baca, mungkin ada kata-kata menarik yang saya akan pinjam, terima kasih Zuril ). Aku rasa tertarik untuk meletakkannya didalam blog aku ini. Kebelakangan ini aku sering mencuri waktu lepas pejabat ku untuk melayari hatikubicara. Aku sendiri tidak tahu kenapa aku terasa untuk meneruskan pelayaran aku dari mula hingga ke akhir. Bagai terasa untuk aku mengenali seorang lelaki yang bernama GHAZ itu, walaupun aku tahu itu mustahil dan tidak mungkin. Jarang lelaki yang berjiwa begitu, atau mungkin aku yang tidak tahu. Aku berkata, bertuahnya SHA, yang pernah dicintai GHAZ. Ntah lah, aku sering bertanya, kenapa aku ...

Ptg tadi aku sempat berborak secara virtual dengan seorang kawan yang berada di -Kuching. Dulu kami sama-sama di INTAN – aku di Kiara dia di Kluang. Kini kami sama-sama kembali ke INTAN. Aku masih lagi di Kiara dan dia di Kuching. Ntah kenapa aku tetiba jer terasa nak visit Kuching. Sudah 3 tahun aku tidak ke sana…. Asyik ke Sabah sajer lately ( sebelum inilah maksud aku… ) Aku bagitau dia… Pertama kali aku ke Kuching, aku berjumpa seseorang yang seterusnya menjadi kawan aku. Itulah kawan lama yang aku maksudkan. Dia seorang kawan lama… tak keterlaluan kalau aku kata, kami pernah suatu ketika dahulu saling sayang menyayangi. Sayang aku pada kawan lama itu banyak faktor luaran kalau aku fikir balik, kalau kerana dirinya semata-mata, aku sendiri tidak pasti perasaan sayang itu akan wujud atau tidak. Maaf, itu pada fikiran aku. Walaupun kadangakala bila aku fikir kembali, ada juga kebaikan lain pada dirinya selain faktor luaran yang aku nampak. Mungkin perasaan sayang aku itu dulu timbul ...

Tak tahu kenapa sejak kebelakangan ni, aku suka baca novel-novel melayu, terutama tulisan Aisya Sofea. Mungkin untuk cuba mengisi kekosongan yang aku rasai kebelakangan ini. Mungkin juga untuk mendalami liku-liku suka duka kehidupan manusia. Walaupun cerita tersebut kebanyakkannya mematuhi hukum alam dan kehidupan, namun kesudahan cerita adalah atas daya imaginasi dan kreatif penulis. Tetapi liku-liku kehidupan kita adalah ketentuan ilahi. Tak seindah yang digambarkan dalam cerita. Selalu sahaja dipenuhi duri dan ranjau. Selalu sahaja ada halangan. Apa pun, terima kasih Kak Rin kerana meminjamkan buku-buku cerita tersebut. Hawa mengenali Adam semasa dirinya baru memasuki alam dewasa dan mengenali erti hidup. Hawa mengenali Adam semasa Adam sedang ingin menikmati kehidupan dan kebebasan ketahap maksimum mengikut caranya sendiri. Hawa belum begitu matang dalam menempuhi duri dan ranjau kehidupan bagi aku. Lantaran atas kesilapan begitu sanggup membiarkan Adam menunggu sebegitu lama. Ist...

This is my very fisrt nephew, Amir Haziq. Son of my second sister. Baby Haziq with his Mama Long and Mak Lang. My sister alwits said, if he have a baby boy, then his son will be like me, be active, she even asked me to buy haziq a very cute adidas shoes for jog. Insya Allah, then haziq can go jogging with mama long. i hope one day haziq will inherit all the good things from us. as a very first grandson of late Ab Razak and Rokiah, hope haziq gonna be more brilliant than his mama long, more handsome than his late grandfather, more patient than his late grandmother, but not as naughty as his mak lang and acik. i have no idea what his abah n umi gonna wish him. really hope that haziq going to have the title that my late dad wish me to have. i 'm the first grandaughter on my mom's site, now it is haziq as for his umi's site.

A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge. The father was kind ofscared so he asked his little daughter, "Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river." The little girl said, "No, Dad. You please hold my hand." "What's the difference, darling?", asked the puzzled father.The little girl replied, "Dad, if I hold your hand and something happens to me, I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, no matter whathappens, you will never let my hand go." In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in itsbond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours. JUST AS GOD WOULD HOLD OURS RATHER THAN EXPECTING US TO HOLD HIS - HE KNOWSOUR GRIP MAY NOT BE STRONG ENOUGH... WHILST HIS IS FIRM AND FULL OF LOVE

The first time i went to Sandakan was march 2005, before i flew bact to KL, i did asked someone, the answer make me happy, i knew i gonna be in Sandakan again. This time, before i went back to KL, i never ask anybody, but i'm really sad. Dunno, either i'll be in Sandakan again or else.........